Saturday, March 3, 2012

I’m Tired

All the time.  And I’m sick of it.  I’m sick and tired.  I forget things, appointments, plans.  I have 582 unfinished projects.  Tonight, Tyler was going to an overnight event for his confirmation class.  I did remember that.  However, I did not remember that he had to be dressed in nice pants.  We realized about an hour and a half before he had to be there that his one good pair of pants was, you guessed it, completely missing.  So while we were at Wal Mart purchasing new pants, I also got him socks and black shoes.  As long as we don’t lose them, we’ll be ready the next time.

So I managed to pull a win outta that situation.  But most of them, I don’t.  I don’t like feeling like this.  I used to be organized.  I used to have lists, organized thoughts, shoot even a calendar in my head.  Dates used to stick and I would remember to get ready ahead of time.  Field trips, birthdays, and meetings were planned for AND attended!  Instead, now every day is a surprise.  I struggle daily to try to keep it together.  I can’t seem to focus.  I hate this.  Am I just this old?  Is senility setting in already?  Do I have too much going in to my head?  Do I need ginko?  Anyone?

4 comments:

Rosa Maria said...

You need a brake. I feel in the same way and I have just two kids.

Ruthann said...

I felt/feel the same way. And I'm not supposed to be old yet ;) I tried the gingko. It didn't seem to help. I stopped it and haven't seen a difference now either. I've found that protein helps my brain work better. Who would have figured?

RK said...

I'm taking ginkgo lately. It does seem to help some, but it's hard to know for sure. It doesn't hurt and is good for ya either way, so get that bottle out!

For the rest of it, I fear it's a season of having those two super busy tots and the life changes that are happening with all your kids. Just life. Which doesn't help, I know!!

Above all else, immerse yourself in God, quiet time (even if in the shower), scripture either read or listened to. He is the biggest game changer. I just forget that too often and keep trying to find my own solutions... when will I learn?!?

Ellen Stumbo said...

I was thinking gingko, but you already suggested it :)